i want to scream at the top of my lungs "YOURE A FUCKIN ASSHOLE" to almost every guy i have even had affection for or been involved with. nice guys are assholes, assholes-are assholes.. what do i do now? im not saying i want a super innocent nice guy, but a guy with a mother fucking conscience would be AWESOME. im done. fuck, i am so done. tomorrow will determine whether or not someone in particular is actually nice after all. as for everyone else. im done. i just want to scream or punch or just burst with anger and frustration and disappointment. i hate being so upset and pissed that i want to cry. i cant stand it. life is not a life when lived alone and im tired of living alone. i wish i could go into the future and see if i end up alone or not- that way i can just end my life now. no kidding.

two weddings this month. im glad im no ones maid of honor cus ill tell you right now my life would be a real life Bridesmaids. i am Annie.